Monday, April 30, 2007

... And then I'm 14 again

So.

I think some of you got scared from the last post (Actually, I know one of you did, you sent me a lengthy email discussing all the reasons I'm a great person, BUT how moping about my life is a thorn in feminism's side, and gave me advice on how to improve my life that started with my "fixing my apparent urge to downplay anything girly" about me. And no, I'm not joking. I'm almost thinking this little gem needs to be shared,- name withheld, of course). Anyway, the feeling has passed. I'm sure there will be a time I will feel lonely again (and despite the advice in the aforementioned email, I'm sure I will write about it), but today, oh today I'm happily single.

Why?

Because I just ran into him. You know. That guy in every ones past who is just... it. Or who was it. Who makes you just want to reach out and touch somebody (like... him). The guy who makes you feel like your 14 again because when you talk to him suddenly your self conscious in a way you haven't in a long time. Suddenly you notice how much space is between you, the band aid on your finger, the color of his eyes. Who makes you blush every time you talk because you are pretty sure he knows what you are thinking (and for the record, you are thinking about wanting to touch... him). The guy who has the actual ability to make you swoon. Swooning people! I was swooning!

I'm actually feeling giddy. More giddy than new shoes make me. Ahh. I'm 14 years old again, but with a bank account and better shoes.

Today, I love the universe.

27 comments:

Ruby said...

Oh so cute! May I borrow him for a bit? I want that giddiness!
Did you giggle and breathlessy brush your hair out of your eyes? I feel that is key in the schoolgirly crush scene here...

As for the email...tosh! Tosh I say!

Wanderlusting said...

Here is something disgusting - I swooned after my bf of over a year the other day. Funny how sometimes it just sneaks up on you.

Of course, this is a rare occasion...but how lovely it is to swoon over anyone, isn't it? I love that giddy, starry-eyed feeling :)

Desiree said...

I LOVE that feeling. It's addicting. I love that it DOES sneak up on you at the oddest moments... but isn't it great that now you have the better bank account and better shoes too! I hope we hear more about this one who is or was 'it'.

Sizzle said...

i love swooning. it's the BEST.

appletini said...

I'm glad that you are doing better today! Yes.. I remember the swooning and am still feeling it. Wow, he must be quite a guy if he made you giddier than shoes. Aahh... a girl after my own heart:)

brookem said...

nothing like a little swooning to put things in perspective, no?

i need me some swoon, asap.

Chica said...

That feeling is the reason I am a crazy lady these days. But oh, how worth it it was!

Vicariously swooning over here, and glad you're feeling better x

Carrie said...

MMM that is a lovely feeling - and I mean swooning, and having a bank account and better shoes just makes it that much better!!!!

Beth said...

I know that guy. He's the one that makes your heart skip a beat and put butterflies in your stomach. And even if you aren't currently dating anyone, it's seems ok now because that means that you will be available when he decides that he can't live without you!

Princess Banter said...

Awww... enjoy the feeling, love, but be careful you don't fall into that death trap. It's quite tough to get out of :) But it's good to know that your eyes are wide open about the situation

Kathryn said...

how lovely for you!

Beth said...

One more thing-I just read your Quote of the Moment and I laughed out loud. That's hilarious!

Bre said...

more giddy than shoes?!?! Is that possible?! Woah.

Mel said...

He had better be a Colin Farrell look alike if he is better than shoes!!! I have a hard time admiting that SEX is better than shoes (and I have damn good sex!).

Well....hopefully you'll be running around shoeless soon if he makes you feel this good. Yay!

brandy said...

Ruby- You may borrow him when I get the ipod I'm still thinking about. (Because I only have one, and you have like, 1097 seems unfair) ;)

wanderlusting- that's not lame! That's cute. So cute in fact, I almost swooned knowing that you swooned over someone you thought you were past swooning over. Maybe I'm just addicted to swooning lately?

desiree- the sneaking up on me was the best part! Sort of... like a complete reversal of the weekend 'sudden urge to put my head in an oven I'm feeling so depressed' moment.

sizzle- agreed!

appletini- Oh, he is. He's just so... darn cute. But in ways I would never think I would be attracted to which makes even better.

brookem- "I need some swooning" asap. I like the force of that sentence!

Chica- thanks!!

Carrie- I know! I totally agree.

Beth- Exactly! It appears that you know this guy quite well... ;)

princess banter- thanks for the advice. I'm trying to not let my swooning affect my judgement.

kathryn- thanks!

Beth- Oh, I know it was so funny. The best part was that he was dead serious.

Bre- I didn't think so until I called friends rambling about him after the encounter and realized I sounded like I won the lottery. Seriously. I am a teenager.

Mel- Better. Than. Colin. Farrell. Really. Oh, I think I just swooned again.. I'm such a nerd.

CarmenSinCity said...

I love that feeling!!!!!

I was totally flirting with a guy last night and it was so fun.

Glad you are having a good day.

Brillig said...

Hahaha. That's great! You sure as heck better keep us posted! (Who needs novels when I have blog-friends?)

Melissavina said...

I sometimes think that feeling is better than actually getting to touch him. You know? The anticipation of it? Wait, nah, the touching is pretty damned great.

Swooning is probably one of the best parts of life. *sigh*

Cyndi said...

Ah, I totally have that guy. Sigh. I bump into him rarely but if I see him I still get butterflies in my stomach and have to check my hair and everything!

Michi said...

I'm happy for you ;) Relish in that swooning feeling!

Another Twentysomething said...

Oh I love him! That guy I think of when putting on my makeup and want to look just cute and perfect enough. I may as well be applying it in the third-floor bathroom by my locker, its so silly but so fun!

JustRun said...

Oh yay! That is just fun and I know exactly what you mean!

Sarah said...

You know what's *almost* better than the swoon run-in? The near-miss run-in, when you encounter that boy you had a HUGE crush on at some point in your life, and you realize how grateful you are that it never, ever amounted to anything. Those are tremendous for the ego!

But swoons are ever so much more fun! Yay for you!

Trixie said...

we all have that "someone" that makes us swoon and make us feel 14 all over again..... ;)

Jennifer said...

I miss this.

Great post, so fun!

Wanderlusting said...

Brandy - I retract my statement. Said man that I swoon over just ended things with me (for the second time in one month) because he doesn't "love me that way anymore."

So I swooned over him and it turns out the love of my life (or at least 15 months to the day, wow), no longer swoons over me.

That said, I guess that means I have days to look forward to in the future, when I can do like you and swoon over someone new :)

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